The Power Behind The Throne

This man is the power behind the Posh throne.

He is the rock to which I cling.

He is the never-sung-loudly-enough hero.

He looks like that, all of the time. ALL the time. Whether he is working or playing, he is always happy, always sunny. On the surface, life is pretty tough on him at the moment. As well as working, he is caring for me, 24 hours a day. He gets up in the morning, cooks me breakfast, makes me tea, and brings it up to bed. He does the shopping, and cooks all the meals. He does the washing up. He ferries me around to appointments, and runs all the errands, mine, his, my mum’s, the business. He works. He gardens. He spends hours a week in volunteer work. He is always eager to help, always willing, always generous. He is incredibly softhearted, loves animals and birds, and has two pet robins that follow him around everywhere, even into the house if he lets them. He is all heart, it takes very little to make him cry, and even less to make him laugh. You should hear his laughter - it is as infectious as a baby’s.

People don’t like Tony. They LOVE him. Truly, I have never known anyone who inspires love like he does. Everywhere he goes, people are drawn to him, and especially the waifs and strays of the world. He is always himself, just as much when talking to a stranger in the street as when talking to a close friend. He is open and genuine, and I think that is what draws people to him. People absolutely adore him.

He loves, loves, loves, his job, and sings the whole time he is dyeing. Tony loves to sing, and sings well. He has no self consciousness, and will be out in the garden, singing at the top of his voice, whilst digging up weeds. He makes me smile, even on days when I can only smile on the inside. He is endlessly loving and supportive and patient and kind – truly, he never runs out of those qualities, however hard things get. When I ask him how he can do so much for me, all of the time, and not get tired or fed up, he gives me a smile that is as open and honest as a child’s, and says, “because I love you SO much!”

All that he needs in return, from me, from anyone, is to be loved as much back. And I do. We do. We all do. We love him back, and then some. You couldn’t not love someone as amazing as Tony is. I’m the luckiest girl in the world, to have him all for my very own.  

Shop Update 24.04.11

As fun as last week’s guessing game update was, it’s nice to get back to photos. Especially this week, because we have lots of punchy colourways for you. Alongside Tony’s speciality, the muted complex subtle colourways. I have a feeling that you are going to really like this week’s selection, because I know that I do.

The preview is now up for your delectation. Don’t forget that we are back to our regularly scheduled time slot of Sunday 8pm. Hope you can join us!

I also want to add a HUGE thank you to everyone for their comments and messages, following my last blog post. I really can’t begin to tell you how much they – and you – mean to us both. Bless you all.

In Sickness & In Health

A later addition to this post:

Bless you all a million percent. Your comments and emails mean so, so much, to us both. How blessed we are, I never forget that however bad things get. Re the business, I just wanted to add a few things.

Not doing the posh updates regularly isn’t an option, financially. It may be that someone has to step into my shoes temporarily, but the updates will go on. The main reason I posted was to reassure everyone that even if I become a bit invisible for a while, you will still be very well looked after, as you always deserve. We both feel very responsible for the welfare of our customers, as does everyone else who has ever helped us out with various aspects of the business.

I will never do an update, or allow anyone else to do one, without ensuring that the parcels can be dispatched within 48 hours of the sale. We’ve worked very hard over the years to earn our customers trust, and that will always be of primary importance to us. If we takes your money, you gets your yarn. No excuses.

Please don’t feel that you don’t want to bother me with emails or messages, if you have any concerns or questions. As long as I am at the helm, it’s my job to take care of you, and not the other way around (as far as business goes, anyway!). I may just take a little longer than normal to reply, say a couple of days, rather than a couple of hours. If I couldnt keep up with communicating with customers then I would make sure that someone else could.

I will also make sure that whatever happens, you will be kept informed, by me, by Tony, or by someone else.

When you run your own business, it is your responsibility, if you have any sense, to have contingency plans for various eventualities. We have a contingency plan for each of us, if we get sick or are unable to work for any reason. Its entirely possible that we could continue things going on without anyone being aware that anything was wrong at all. But I’ve always run the business with a policy of full disclosure and open communication, seeing you all as friends as much as customers, so it wouldnt feel right not to include you now, and let you know what is happening.

Very much love, from us both.

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It’s about time I filled you in on what’s going on at Posh HQ. My health has deteriorated to the point where its touch and go as to whether I will need to go into hospital. I’m seeing my GP this morning to discuss the options. Hopefully we can work something out that means I can stay at home, but get extra support from care workers.

Basically the situation is this: I came off one antidepressant, very quickly, and was put on another. The new one is clearly not suiting me at all – I am experiencing lots of distressing side effects, and no positive effects. I feel like I’m being poisoned. My brain chemistry is completely messed up. I haven’t been sleeping since I came off the old medication, and my depression has got worse and worse, until my body is pretty much wrecked (I’m experiencing mainly physical symptoms rather than psychological). I have never felt so ill in my life. Because things have gone so far, the GPs have decided that they need to pass me on to a consultant, who is expert in this kind of medication, and will know what to do for the best. They have diagnosed this quite categorically as a biochemical problem, not an emotional one, and I agree completely. They sent in an urgent request for referral last week, and I’m waiting to hear.

But in the meantime, I get a little sicker every day. I’m pretty much bedridden. Tony is having to give me 24hr care, even going to the loo is a two man job. When your brain chemistry is in a mess, nothing works right. My whole body is in crisis. Quite honestly, I didnt know it was possible to be this ill.

I’ve been very reluctant to tell you how bad things had got, because I don’t want to worry anyone, and because we’re doing everything in our power (with help from friends) to make sure that the business isnt affected. AND IT WON’T BE. Posh Yarn is our life, our love, and our livelihood. We’ll keep going through thick and thin. The parcels will go out today. We will continue to do a weekly update if humanly possible, even if that takes a team of willing volunteers behind the scenes to put it together (and I have that team, an army of loved ones, all ready to step in whenever necessary). This business is our love and our joy, and something solid to hang on to. So please don’t worry about that, or lose trust in us. We’ll always make sure that any difficulties at our end do not affect our customers in any way. Please believe that. Tony was very dubious about this post, but I trust my posh peeps to understand, to trust us, and to hang in even if things get a little unpredictable for a while (I’m only talking about updates, blogging, or posts from me, not about parcel delivery, answers to emails, or anything like that).

You’ve all been the most marvelous friends, so kind and supportive. You’re part of my support team, so its only fair that I put you in the picture now. I’ll let you know anything as soon as I know anything. With a bit of luck the doctor will be able to put together a plan of extra medication and/or support, and I’ll be able to keep tottering on until I see the consultant.

Shop Update 16.04.11

The preview for this Saturday’s special guessing game shop update is now up!!

(This is a special one off update, we will go back to the regular style update and time next weekend.)